What to Say......

[Taylor]

I recall a time when we as a guild decided that if one could not devote themselves to our guild then perhaps they did not have what it took to stay in our guild..... Yet we allow our guild to dwindle and die as the few people that are active spend most if not all of there time with other guilds and do nothing to help keep our guild alive.

Saddly RoR has become a guild... I no longer feel the family, I once knew, still breaths..

Perhaps it is just me. Perhaps I have changed. Or perhaps I am just of an old frame of mind and feel that a family should be commited to and put first rather than if the other guild I am part of isn't doing something I will take the time to pop in and see if anyone is around.

Draco- As always you will be my brother.
Grey- I love you like the sister I always wanted.
Vega... What can I say You are my polar opposite. We love to debate and I count you a great and dear friend.
Crissede- With a gleam in my heart you will always be with me. You are a very special lady and hopefully you will find the happiness you so deserve.

I have been tied up as of late moving and opening a new store as you all know and it has given me time to think. Time to contemplate what I want from my time in RoR and UO and saddly it has not lived up to my expectation for some time now. I am uncertain if I will remain in the lands and if I do what I will do with my time there but of one thing I am certain. I must have a change. Or Taylor will die in the lands of Sosaria......

IF I remain in RoR as a chosen leader a few things must change. Of this I am certain.
1. We become a united guild consisting of dedicated members with no other guildly obligations.
2. We become active as a group.
Regualr meetings the like.
3. We go back to our guiding values which include respect for eachother and allow none to insult any member of our family. As in days if old even if it is one of us trying to insult another. As my Mom used to say you are both being punished for hitting eachother but the one that hit first gets the worst of it.

If any do not agree with this than my feelings are confirmed it is time for me to move on.

And for clarification I have no problem with sub guilds created for EL or the like but people joining other regular guilds because RoR is not active enough to please them is a crock of SHIT and is a crappy excuse to say I would rather let someone else do all the work and I just want to tag along to reap the rewards. The last hunt that I hosted that had 6 RoR members attend only 2 of those members wore the RoR badge the rest wore colors of other guilds.... 2 out of 6 willing to wear the badge we all fought so hard to keep alive.... It made me angry and at the same time it made me very sad........

Well I'll shut up now as I have probably just angered a few people but at this point I don't care.....

[Crissede]

*hugs soflty*

I have to admit that RoR is quieter these days, this has caused most of us to seek other adventures in the lands.
Im grateful and hopeful that both Grey and Draco will be able to return to the lands as they hope to.

As for the other guild obligations.....

Im as guilty of this as most are. But Im not obligated to the other guilds any more than I am RoR. I have a thieves guild I am active with. And then my own COS. Neither of which mean I love RoR any less.

I've kept my heart here, with my UO friends and family. Although at times ..yes..the petty bullshit that others cause on the board..Yes lets name names. Adian and Natasha. Adian eggs Natasha. Of course Steve (Natasha) is going to respond. Half the time I talk him out of it. I am truly TIRED of Adians anger.

He's not the man I used to know. Im not sure whom he is anymore.

I dont' wish to see you depart from us Taylor.
I wish I could promise you more. My own personal life shall become the same whirl wind you just experienced as I move to Texas (scheduled for March 1) I find less to do in these lands lately, and have drawn away from the pc more and more to spend time with Derek.

*hugs tighter* My heart will always be a Ranger, even when my spirit can no longer support these lands.

Lubbies you Taylor

[Taylor]

This is a decision I do not take lightly as I have dedicated nearly 6 years to RoR. Grey and Draco are the only 2 that have spent more time than myself fighting for the life of RoR....

Perhaps I am seeing why Dane decided to leave. I understand his anger as I have slowly watched what he started and what we all worked to build slowly decays.

RoR is part of a virtual world and in such many would say what is the loss to leave. I have never hugged you but do you care any less for me? Most have never heard my voice but if we met in an airport would you hesitate to embrace me as you would a long lost friend?
I can answer both of these as I have experienced them. I know the truth that many of us have gotten to know each other better than we know people in our every day lives that we call friends...... I have bitten my tongue and refused to say things I felt were right in a hope I would not offend someone here I care for but sadly that time is past. The truth of the matter is I have turned down invitations to the most active guilds on the shard and offered new starts on other shards because I have remained dedicated to RoR and felt it would be wrong for me to do so. I realize these are my morals and do not expect others to live by them. But as one for the counsel members and one of the ones that helped write the values of RoR I have done wrong to the guild by shutting my mouth. We have all let RoR fall to disrepair by being more concerned with our own agendas. We used to have a thriving Craft group and a few cutthroats in our ranks. We had reds among us before the split of the lands we fought side by side and took care of anyone needing a hand regardless of what they did in the past. Now most go and seek companionship and action in other guilds do little if anything to help those in need and generally do like most elders in the communities of real by sitting around and talking about the days of old but doing nothing to try and relive them. So are we done now or is it time to step off the porch and make a stand and make it known things will be the way WE the origins of RoR want it or they can hit the bricks? Will we be one united guild again or will we close the stone and be forgotten....
For a very long Time Draco was the backbone and Grey the heart of RoR with Adian as the head. The head rolled off and the backbone joined the heart and tried to carry on. The heart got stabbed, the backbone stepped on and yet they are still here. We came together to allow them time to fix there RL that required the majority of their time giving them little to no time for anything else. We as the counsel have let the guild fall apart. We agreed to run things and keeps it going but when all was said and done we tried here and there and piece by piece we gave into other desires and went other directions. Either deciding to sit idly by and watch or go and join other guilds we are all guilty of it. Draco and Grey are trying everything they can to make it back to the lands to try and rebuild but can they do it alone? I don't know... I hope they don’t have to. But Part of me is afraid it may be to late.....

As far as Steve and Dane.... who knows... I have only known the Natasha side of Steve’s personality so I can not say much more about him. As far as Dane. He is human and he knows he has made mistakes and he has to live with those mistakes. For better or worse Dane started RoR and with out the efforts of Dane, Draco, and Grey there would be NO RoR to try and rebuild........

I ramble as I am upset and I know I am. I may regret what I have said here later but it needs to be said. If any are offended by this then perhaps it is not an offense at what is written but guilt trying to deny the truth…..

[Draco DeFalcon]

Taylor my friend...

Sometimes you completely amaze me.

I do not think your words could have been stated better. I hear no malice...I see no nastiness...I simply feel your words are meant from the heart.

*bows low*

Draco